Monday, April 25, 2005

Back in Bp

I am back in Budapest. And I am not leaving Budapest. Because then he would win. My first instinct was to go back to the US and into the safety net of my family. But I have a life here. I am not going to run away.

Less than making me think about how much I have lost, this has made me realize what I have, and that is: amazing friends. L insisted that I stay at his house, but I think it's important for me to be as independent as possible right now. Zsolti miraculously found a flat for me on very short notice. It's near the synagogue. It's too big for me, but I am grateful to even have a bed to sleep in. There is a little sign on the bathroom door that says, "Bad." German for "bath," but my first instinct was that it was an adjective for me. I must be bad, and that's why this is happening.

I know now that he cannot ruin my career. That is the main thing. He wrote a letter rescinding a letter of recommendation that he had written for me to an organization that had chosen me to work for them in Paris for a few months in the fall. But I have contacted the director, and he has assured me that no letter he could write would threaten my position with them.

I have a lead on where my belongings might be, though I still don't know if it will be possible to get them back. I will find out more tommorrow.

I am thinking of enrolling in a TEFL course that begins in May, so that I can be productive until it's time for me to go to Paris.

This post is lackluster. I am just so tired. But thank you for your sweet comments and e-mails. They have made all the difference.


At 3:22 PM, Blogger Indeterminacy said...

This is great news! And I do hope you get your things back. Consider reporting this to the police, if that's an option. Let this guy's black karma smother him like a thick cloud of flies.

At 5:02 PM, Blogger Ashbloem said...

Good to not let him win. I am impressed by your strength.

At 7:42 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

i saw a voodoo doll kit on special at borders. when you have a more permanent address, ill send it to you so you can start pin-stabbing away! love, the pacifist

At 5:31 PM, Blogger judyjudy said...

happy that you're back. it will be o.k.

At 1:27 PM, Blogger Irma Vep said...

Thank you thank you for your comments! They make me so happy!

Indeterminacy: thank you for the virtual hug in my inbox!

Ashbloem: Don't be too impressed,..I have lovely kind friends who have been strong for me. But thank you.

The Pacifist: A voodoo doll kit!!! Fantastic! I love it! You are such a sweetie to think of it and to make such an offer! But really, he is not worth the postage or the pins.

Judyjudy: Thank you. I know that it was the right thing for me to stay in Bp. I know it will be OK.

At 2:53 AM, Blogger simon said...

Az én városom két részböl áll. Compared to most men, that's decidedly minimalist.


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